Ups and Downs...

Ups and Downs.....

Hi everyone!

I titled this one 'Ups and Downs' because that is how I feel.  I have been SO very tired.  My hemoglobin is pretty low and I am struggling.  I had an Aranesp injection last week but it takes about 3 to 4 weeks before the body starts to get it back.  I hate the fact that this shot costs about $1000.  I have to have some quality of life.  The expenses get to you after a while.

I live pretty minimally.  I have an apartment with 1 TV; 1 10 year old sofa, and some bed room furniture.  I don't own a car; I can't afford to buy one.  There isn't much left to cut out; I need something to enjoy.  I work, go home, relax, maybe watch some TV or a movie and on my days off I go stay with my eldest son's family and hang out with the grand-kids.  I don't get to go to church like I would like.  I work on Sundays; this happens in the casino world.  I have a great job with awesome benefits I would not find another with the same or better benefits so I will not leave.  I love what I do, the people I work with, and most of the people are great!  I have made some good friends at work.  I wish I could socialize with my other friends more.  I try to get together with a couple of my best friends from school.  With all of our crazy schedules it is hard to do.

At least I have some music to listen to.  I don't know what I would do without it!  I release my emotions with music.  It encourages, faith substantiating, brings joy, prompts prayer, gives empathy, allows escape, and permits brief mourning.  I keep all kinds of music with me.  One of the best inventions ever are MP3 players!  :)

I had a great surprise last week.  It was a ticket to see Donny Osmond at Belterra!  I was absolutely blind sided with that one.  I was so dead tired, but I wouldn't miss it!  He was wonderful!  He gave an incredible show!  He made me cry; I was reliving my adolescence!  I took every moment in; what if it is the last time I will see him.  I don't want to be morbid I am hopeful I will see him again, but I also have to cherish each moment as if it is the last.  After all regardless of good health or not we never know. 

Live every day like it is your last!

Until next time!

Deb

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Debora Kay Grubbs Louks